I used to be a beauty and fashion obsessed girly-girl, but I fear that ship has sailed. The last time I attempted to read a fashion magazine, I mindlessly flipped through the pages uninspired, bored, and basically just not interested. My mojo is gone and I'm not sure how I can coerce her to return.
Honestly I don't blame my mojo for skipping town - hell I just wish she had dragged me along as a plus one. I'm unemployed, way (way, way) past my marriage and having children deadline, and on top of all that, I live in the Midwest. Illinois. Chicago to be exact. I hate this city with every fiber of my being and all I want to do is move away. I am so sick of living here. I have an escape plan and God willing relocation will happen. It has to happen, because another few months in this city and my escape may be found inside a bottle of generic aspirin with a hard liquor chaser - I kid, I kid... I would never make that type of drastic escape.
Life as of late has been less than great. My faith is being tested. I'm overly stressed out and nothing is happening. I read a quote a while back - "When you're down to nothing, God is up to something." I hate to be a nag, but can that something come on? Like right now? And can it be in the form of some employment? Talk about financially strapped, but I won't bore you with the details. Instead I will be grateful that I have a roof over my head, food to eat, family and friends who let me vent, and this little space on the internet to document my journey.
By the way, if you see my mojo, tell her I said hello and I miss her...
Later,
TRB
